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there was a really awesome lady at the hospital today.

she was cheery for someone who was doomed with the big C. she was a shining star of cheer---

even if she had been a person not doomed with anything.

i found out later, after i already liked her, that she was one of those people that go door-to-door trying to spread you their religion. they stand around the subways with their paper pamphlets.

one of those people? my new friend? it really cracked my head open. i don't want to talk about that with her, i mean, i just feel like that would be torture for me to have a conversation about religion with her. but at the same time, i realize that i have a lot of closed minded biases and i should really work on that.

the other thing i noticed, that was painful, was that the cheery religious lady was surrounded by people and support. and that's something that i think is hard to look at.

you know what i'm talking about?

i'm talking about the gaping hole!