bat man

i have a really good memory of halloween last year. for some reason matthew was gone and i took my baby axel on the bike down to fort greene. we weren't planning on staying long, but it was so exciting and fun. the streets were packed with people, costumes, crazy haunted houses and a small theater production in some person's front lawn. it was so pretty and zany, i really liked it a lot. i liked that i wasn't doing what i normally want to do. i was doing something for axel, that he liked doing and was enjoying. normally i hate crowds, i hate his routine being disrupted, i hate candy. but for once it all went out the window and it was a blast. riding home on the bike in the dark i knew axel felt very very privileged to be awake and outside in the spooky darkness. it was super fun. this year axel is a big ass man child. he knows it is approaching, he's read all the little critter books about it. he's seen thomas the train doin' it. he is pumped. i think it will be really great and it will be fun to have him so aware of what is going on.